Will I Be Waiting

 The best chance I every gave a person to see me!As I am...the way I became ! My Pops.

Giving up the fact that he left me.Letting go of the fact that he Took someone I hardly got to know away from me.

 We had a moment ...back in the carnival.We raised "hell"together.

 Wondered into dark areas together.

 But the Bonding never happened.See that is why I left myself venerable,that hope that he would see.see that I only wanted to hear "Son you can do anything." I even got to the point where I would have ate stale compliments or criticism like scrapes off a table(not for my validation) just so I knew I had his attention...as a son for a moment.So perhaps he will try to get a hold of me on his death bed.Perhaps I will be waiting.