So what do you believe in ?

last night the tear drops fell, as I screamed in utter anger
although fast a sleep I was, she was wide awake and beside herself

with fears and tears
that I would go and leave her

She knew not where this was coming from
or what had brought it on, or what it was

that which I was going through, or what I was going to do
but, as usual she placed the blame upon herself and left me

See the pain it comes from somewhere deep within
although she could not know it, because it was hidden

In my deep, dark, and sorted past
I have taken many lives, and now I am alone at last

in a protectors role, it is some times necessary to over look
some of these takings, they were out of mercy, but, yet the last that I took

it was just, and not in or of my nature, It happened so unexpectedly
quickly drawn upon by friendly fire, by a Gate Keeper

I took that young mans life, before
he could even squeeze the trigger

see he was in love with a young Navy WAVE
who was being pressured by a Figure Head

I respected this man dearly
but, these thoughts of discontent

I did get wind of, and i turned my head
now this young man is dead

by my hand but, the Commander he lives on
though my soul it be torn, I was reborn

Now it is only shown, while in my bed
when I am fast a sleep
my demons I alone, "They" I must keep

I was making advancements in my field of course
I swallowed many foolish lies, of Duty and of Honor

though there are many of us who do it well
some of us, must go through a living hell

living secrete lives, and when we are under stress
from our daily living, up sneaks our misgivings

they attack us, when and where we are most vulnerable
In our dreams, they hide buried in our subconscious minds

where the truth will always hunt us down
weather it, for it maybe true or it maybe falsified
or even a down right lie

but, yet!
this punishment we earn, doing that what we believed in
[The right to Truth, Life, and the Pursuit of Happiness]

Freedom rings for those who dare to hear it, and wish to achieve it

now I lay me down to sleep, I pray
my prey passes me by, and my secretes keep
let no one enter in, least they be neutralized

The secrete is the young man did not commit suicide
His life was taken by my hand, and the facts lie hid and buried

in contented lies, I was let go
under doctors lies, and alibi's