Dear Mom

(Dear Mom) By. machada 8/6/07 In 95 u told me u had a disease that could kill. Found my emotions fucked up not knowing' that's the result of pain that I would fill. It hurts so bad inside ta no that one day you will die. You have no idea how many times I have sat around and cried. Because life without you would be like life without a care ppl telling me your gone and me askin where is she??? where??? And even though the time that I’ve had with you on this earth hasn’t always been as great as it should. Just know if I could take away all your pain and sickness I would!!!! I miss u all the time even when you’re not that far away. And I know moments have to move on but you I want 2 stay. I’m not ready 4 you to leave me not just yet. Because you are the greatest angel on this earth, that I have ever met. And I know that I’m a woman now and you may say that I have to be strong. But I waited 28 years 4 you and that's just 2 damn long!!! You’re the air that I breathe so with out you i’m done. Because where a team and united as one. 2 hell with anyone that doesn’t understand how I fill. Yea there's been hard times between us but I always have kept it real. So just know that threw all the bullshit n the lies know that if he took you 2day you where always my angel n disguise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And so what if you messed up at times we all do, BUT the magic in it all is that I still love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Understand that I'll always love you till the end of time. My dear mother you are always n my heart and n my mind!!!!!