despondence

moving congruently among beasts, i begin to advance to an absinthian version of shallow.
How did I get so astray?
why cant i resurrect between beatitude and despair.
possession can only be my absolution.
So be inclined to invoke my anatomy in order to fulfill this yearning for stable genesis.
while erasing the impertinent yellow hollow.
palpation is so indolent when I open my eyes to respire the winds’ acerb ventilation.
animated everyday with animosity and deep abysmal neurosis.
I crave to clamber away from this bottomless pit feeding off irenic ravines.
becoming unzipped with the hope to eventually live.
crying silently through cold fixated eyes made of stone;by the infected gloomy fiend.
which is me groveling out of a self made web.
let me away,the beacon is coming.
Im plummeting lower.
like innocence robbed from a milky white crib.
I will never make it to the sustaine ending.
So now i will embrace this abstruse hate for the terrene fallen followers
Im their once again.
gliding on the waves of utopia up to where i thirst to be.
prod me under so i’ll slip.
This is not what i yearn for, but what was chosen for me.
grant me to suffocate on the last drip.
irrevocably at tranquil peace in the luminous blue bay.
Sorry for the awareness of repulsion.
assuredly melting away.