The Unnamed

It was yet again, another ending to another day filled with endless thoughts of you. The feelings of emptiness, doubt and impatience. Where are you? When are you going to come? Forever waiting to look up and see your face. Constantly anticipating that shock of recognition that you are the one whom I have been waiting for! It is strange to me, this feeling that you are out there, somewhere. But it is the only sure feeling that I have. Anxiety of wondering if you will see me, if you will know, as I do, keeps me up at night. The constant questions of you circle my mind as I lay in the darkness. When I awake, When I go threw my everyday life and you don’t come, I wonder if you can hear my call? I wonder if you can feel what I feel? I lecture myself over and over about being silly and naïve. Don’t I know that what I feel is only an illusion?! Can’t I realize that I’m wasting my time, you are never coming?! Because there is no you! You are only a figment of my imagination. That’s what I tell myself over and over as I walk my path threw life. If all that is true, then why doesn’t it go away and leave me alone? Stop tormenting me! stop haunting my soul! stop whispering in my dreams! Go away! Let me live in peace and happiness. But, it never ceases, it just goes on and on everyday making my life depressing and hallow. Why can’t I be normal and be happy? Why can’t I just accept and keep on moving? I can’t! Do you know why! My heart won’t let me! It keeps beating and telling me that you are out there somewhere and that one day we will be together!